Olivia Colman might be the in-demand darling of UK television right now, but the Broadchurch star admits she still has the odd “black cloud” moment in her life.
Colman is stealing the show as the likeable and down-to-earth police sergeant Ellie Miller alongside former Doctor Who David Tennant in ITV’s Broadchurch.
However, for all her dark moments, the 39-year-old insists that this is a long way from the teenage version of herself that “had a problem with not eating”.
“As a teenager I worried in private about lots of things but I was good at faking it,” the BAFTA nominated star told The Big Issue.
“I was a fairly jolly teenager but there was a time when I had a problem with not eating and struggling with body confidence. I had black clouds. And still do.
“But now I know when I’m in a fug and that it’ll pass. I had post-natal depression after my first baby. But I knew I loved my baby, I’ve always been able to see what I have in my life.
“It would be nice to go back in my life to those early fugs and tell my younger self, you’ll be okay. This will pass. And you will be loved. Don’t make any rash decisions in this moment.
“You can make the world work and have a brilliant time. And if you’re not skinny, fuck it. I’m basically a pretty upbeat person.”
Broadchurch, now in its penultimate week, sees Colman’s Detective Sergeant Miller investigate the murder of a schoolboy and explores the impact that the death has on a small, close-knit community.
And Colman revealed that she couldn’t keep her emotions in check during the making of the hit crime drama.
“Making Broadchurch, I couldn’t stop crying,” she said. “It’s just awful, the idea that your children could go before you.
“I’d have a scene and they’d say, you’re not crying in this scene, and I’d think, yeah right, good luck with that.”
To read Olivia Colman’s full Letter To My Younger Self interview, buy this week’s Big Issue magazine, on sale now
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